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WOW! [22 Jan 2008|11:15pm]
[ mood | calm ]

So no one uses this ne more and I haven't been on it for like almost 2 yrs or something. Just finished reading most of my entries and I...LAUGH! lol I was hella immature but so was everyone else in hs lol so over it. So much shit has changed since the last time I wrote on this shit. Still at UCD rockin out haha. Not w Doug ne more..err haha long story short, had an apartment together in Davis but had a change of heart and broke up. Still friends tho. Just glad I'm not with him, ne more. Since we broke up he's done heroin 3 times and now still smokes weed and is doing acid so umm...good for him? w/e. IDIOT. But I don't regret the year and 3 months we were together, I learned A LOT in that time about being a good gf. It wasn't all his fault...I did my share of lying but he deserved every penny of it lol.

Well, now I'm with this dude named Kyle and here I am in ANOTHER long distance relationship lol guess I have a nack for that. He's another Jew, blond hair blues eyes from culver city ha ha. I melt for white boys can you tell? lol. Met him through Liz and Rich less than a month after Dpug and I broke up in the summer. To say the least, he rocked my world from the very first time we had our own time together. Have now been together for almost 7 months and so far so good. The rents love him and so do my sis and bro and their second halves =) We're planning a trip to go bull riding haha I'm so gonna kick kyle's ass and my bro's =D But yea, shit's good with him. We're gonna get married...LOL. JK!!! WAAAAYYYYY too soon. BUT we are going to Hawaii this summer!!! WOOOHOO! Never been so I'm hella excited. (Oh and yes, I have given in to the Norcal lingo "hella!" lol)

Might be going to Canada (well a canadian island) sometime between may and oct for a wildlife internship, but not sure yet...

Errmm idk what else is left to say...umm I have 2 tats? lol. Yea they're hot except I have a matching one with Doug so it kinda always reminds me of him lol. w/e it's hella hot cuz it's Johnny's!!!! and then other one well...only my bf can see that one lol unless im in a bathing suit I suppose.

mmm enough for this update...probably wont be back in a long time again. laterz (to myself I guess...no one uses lj ne more...)

things are better if i stay

[19 Aug 2006|10:37am]
Wowz so it's been a couple of months since I've been on this damn thing...does ne one still even use it? lol. IDK but I guess I will once in a blue moon. ne ways, sooo summer has been GOOD, quitting my job in a week cuz I'm tired of it and I want to be a lazy bum lol. Doug and I are OF COURSE still happily together =) and plan on being together for the rest of our lives =D. Just yesterday we went to Catalina Island with his mom and his sis. It was my first time there and I absolutely loved it! We went snorkeling and of course me being afraid of being in the ocean, and especially since I don't really swim, I had a REALLY bad panic attack when I first got into the open water. I FREAKED SOOO BAD!! I felt like I had no control over ne thing and I couldnt breath at all, I was gasping for air and holding on to Doug for dear life lol. I was like I CAN'T BREATH!!! I NEED TO GO BACK ON RICHARD'S BOAT!!!! But he finally calmed me down and told me what to do b/c I was somehow trying to swim back to Richards boat but I couldnt and I was freaking b/c it seemed like his boat was only getting farther and farther away so I HAD to get the whole snorkeling thing right since there was no way I could make it back on the boat lol. So I realized that and tried to calm down and listen to Doug's directions. After about 5 minutes of freaking, I got the hang of the whole sticking that tube in my mouth and breathing out of it lol. When I got used to it, I realized how nice it was. Still Doug wouldn't let go of me so we swam together the whole time with his arm around my back, but it was absolutely amazing down there with all the beautiful fish =)He got me a sea shell and a reallyy pretty like glass rock. Overall it was plenty of fun. The rest of the day was good too, got some foodz, shopped, ate ice cream, and then came back home to some lovin lol and THEN got to my house at around 1am. GOOD TIMEZ =D
things are better if i stay

[04 Jun 2006|01:12pm]
Wow so prom was soooo freakin awsome!!! Better than I expected. And it was even better b/c I had my love with me. =)

I got ready at elizabeth's house but first her mom took me to get my hair done at a place in downtown culver city. After that I went back to her house and we chilled for a while while bumpin Panic!at the disco, then we got ready and then chilled some more til like 5 then we just got dressed and were ready for our guests since we were the hosts and all. First Ralph and his gf got there then Richard and his parents showed up (Doug still not there!) so Richards dad took a wholen bunch of pics but I felt like a loser b/c my bf wasnt there. Once we were done with pics Doug and his parents finally made it and guess what? it was time for more pics! lol so we got pics of me putting on his boutineer and him putting on my coursage then group pics and stuff like that then Josh and his date got there, so there were more pics. I don't think I've ever taken so many pics lol. After pics we went inside I talked to his mom a bit and stuff and ppl ate and such. At 7 the limo showed up and hey! more pics!!! lol. the limo was tite! It was a beige chrysler 3000 stretch limo. Even Doug's mom took pics in it lol. Oh and his dad (who is a professional photographer) made us like take pics if us looking into eachothers eyes and stuff lol awkward but cute. And did I mention just how freakin good my bf looked? mmmm so handsome. When we got tired of pics we finally got in the limo and we were off! We took a trip to the beach and took some pics and group ones too that the limo driver took of us then we went to PROM! We got there in style fo sho. The partay was already crakin when we got there. The first thing we did was take our pics then Doug ate and we were off to the dance floor! I have to say Doug did have some trouble at first but wow how he caught on right away with the freaking and grinding =) He went from white chocolate to dark chocolate hahaha. He got really good and we were getting our freak on! We danced almost every song except for those small breaks we took to rest and get a drink for a couple of minutes. I dont think I've ever danced that much in my life. And it was so much fun that even Doug started singing them ghetto songs lol. By the end of the night he was like "we gotta go clubbin soon." lol. Oh no, I c ghetto Doug coming out hehe. But yea it was bomb. Then prom king and queen were announced. Of course our Josh won! and that one girl, I 4got her name lol buy supposedly EVERYONE knows her, well I dont! They playd some really good music esp one of my fav love songs, "all my life" by Kc and jojo which i sang to Doug while slow dancing and kissing of course, it was soo romantic to see all the couples on the floor looking into eachothers eyes, for that moment its like I saw love in every single one of them, including us. <3 I love him so much...and I'll never forget Prom. After prom was sadly over, we got our free frames and went outside to wait for our limo and then we were off............one day closer to the end of our high school lives and the beginning of a new one. wow I never thought this day would come, it's kinda sad...

Paris June 3, 2006 Culver High, fo sho!

'06!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
Baby, Ooh, I'm so glad

I will never find another lover
Sweeter than you, sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover
More precious than you
More precious than you

Girl you are,
Close to me, you're like my mother
Close to me, you're like my father
Close to me, you're like my sister
Close to me, you're like my brother
You are the only one, your'e my everything
And for you this song I sing, and


::Chorus::

All my life

I prayed for someone like you

And I thank God, that I

That I finally found you, baby

All my life

I prayed for someone like you

And I hope that you

Feel the same way too

Yes, I pray that you do love me too
I said, you're all that I'm thinking of, baby
Said I promise to never
Fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinking of
I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love
I cherish every hug
I really love you so much, baby, baby, baby

Repeat Chorus You're all that I ever know
When you smile on my face
All I see is a glow
You turn my life around
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

You're all that I ever know
When you smile my face glows
You picked me up when I was down

And I hope that you
Feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you
Do love me too
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[29 May 2006|10:46pm]
[ mood | amused ]

1st day of summer!!!! Couldn't have been better...well actually it could have, just a bit. Woke up at 7:30 got ready and went on my way to Doug's house. Said hello to the rents and then we went on our way to Will Roger's State Park. Yes, we went MOUNTAIN BIKING! AHHH. I don't have one so his dad let me borrow his, that was cool. Well here's the thing, I havent been on a bike in SEVEN YEARS and especially not a mountain bike. It was really hot but just beautiful up there. So we got on the bikes (I was having a bit of trouble for a few seconds but then I got a hang of it again lol). We started going UP the trail and wow it was freakin difficult. I was DYING but for him it was barely a warm up, did I mention he lives for this sport? So yeah it was a piece of cake for him so I tried my best but really, inside I was feeling like SHIT! About 20 minutes of going up hill on that damn mountain I had to take a break cuz my legs were just giving out. I was starting to really not feel well so I tried covering it up and continued on but some 5 or 10 min. later I started feeling nauseous, just dizzy, couldn't breath, almost fell down so we stopped and he just held me b/c I felt like I needed to throw up, I was dizzy, couldnt breath, and every time I tried to stand on my own I would almost fall so I had to hold on to him again, it was TERRIBLE and I was so embarrassed b/c I knew that in a sense I had let him down but I couldnt help it, uldnt really go on so we rode for a couple more minutes to find some shade and I just dropped my bike and held on to him b/c I couldnt go on ne longer. Man I almost fainted, it just sucked lol but the scenery was gorgeous up there and he was trying to get me to concentrate on that, my mind was else where though. Finally 15 min. later I felt good enough to go down hill since i didnt have to do ne thing but stay on the bike and it did the rest of the work for me, so we did that and when we got down we found a really nice place secluded from the rest of the park by some police horse stables and some picnic tables, really cute place. We talked and ate and just had great bonding time. =] He makes me so happy. He promised me that he will get me to be just as good as him at mountain biking. So from now on we're gonna go use the beach trails, just normal ones that dont have uphills or downhills so I can get more fit and used to riding the bike for long periods of time then little by little start doing harder stuff till I can complete the whole "backbone trail" at Will Rogers. He's really gonna work me hard lol he totally has his mind set on teaching me this which is coool and I promised to buy a bike soon =/ which is atleast $400 for an ok mountain bike.gggrrr. I guess I'ma have to use my $500 Claudia Bonus on that next month hehe. I'm sure it will feel great when I finally make the top of that mountain, it's my goal! But yeah after HIS warmup and my downfall lol we went to his house to have some fun hehe. We slept for a while recovering from the bike ride then he took me to a really cute cafe the "50's cafe" I believe it's called. It's awsome in there, got a lot of really cool 50s stuff and music. The food was yummy too mmmm. Then we went back to his house and watched "Pirates..." =D

I went to work at 5:30 it was way better than I had expected. No customers!!!!! So we were all just fucking around for 4 hours. Freakin Alan (manager) was for some odd reason running around chasing Alex and then Jonathan (floor supervisor) ALSO started chasing his and throwing food at him lol till Alex finally hid himself in a dog crate and I locked him in and told Alan where he was lol it was HILARIOUS! Then I dont know how it started but we began having a dog food fight throwing Lotus ALL OVER THE PLACE at Alan, Jonathan, Alex, Danny, and of course me. I got jonathan on the ass haha good shot and Alan on the head hehe. It was so unfair though! When Alan told me to go get some bags of food from between an isle, Danny and Jonathan knew I couldnt run away b/c I was stuck so they grabbed a whole bunch of food and just started throwing it at me!!! IT HURT! lol. It was really funny though I have to admit they got me good =P Oh and Alan was being his evil self pulling me around lol. Wow just the best day at work ever, seeing ur manager, floor sup, and co worker playing fucken hide and seek and shit lol. Then having a dog food fight in the middle of the store. GOOD TIMES! Oh yeah, and I sold a furminator...hah....lol.

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[14 May 2006|09:51pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Yay so yesterday both choirs and band went to the "music in the parks" competition thing and we did great. got to school at 6:30am (woke up at 5am!!)my bf Doug went =)so we went in his car and we followed stephanie the whole way (got lost for a while hehe), wow she's a crazy driver when she's in a hurry but it was funny speeding like maniacs through the freeway lol. we performed at some middle school then we went to Universal Studios and had some fun. Everyone went but all three couples went our separate ways.doug and i just wanted to be together. we got on pretty much everything (my 1st time there) and it was a whole lot of fun! then at 5 we went to the thing where they gave out the awards. both choirs got "excellent" ratings and we both won 1st place!!!! then the band got a "superior" rating and also won 1st place (but b/c they were the only high school band competing lol). We were all so proud of our selves!!! after that the park closed so Doug and I went shopping at the city walk!! =) Hot Topic was the best, I got 3 patches and one for him, some black eye shadow which I've been looking for, a sticker of the tattoo I'm planning on getting, and I also bought him the coolest shirt ever b/c he always buys me everything i want and he treats me soo great so i think he deserved it. around 8 we drove through the sunset strip came back to LA and we watched a movie of course lol then went to eat and finally got home at midnight. whew loooong day, but it was a whole lot of fun fun fun!!! just being w/ him was the best part though. it's so weird how totally opposite this relationship is to the one i had w/ rolli. rolli and i used to argue/ fight every day!! doug and i have been together for a month and a half and have not had a single real argument or fight. we make each other too damn happy to have time for crap. =]

in other news, decided to give it a chance and tell the rents about prom, instead of lying to them (since like 3 yrs ago they punished me by taking prom away) and at first mom was like FUCK NO UR NOT GOING!! But I got them to change their minds =) yyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooo excited now, gonna have such a great night! got a limo and everything!! we're gonna have to take a trillion pics!! his dad is a professional photographer who works at the getty museum, so he already told me we have to take tons of pics. his parents are funny and his mom made me show her my dress and put it like over me to see how it is gonna look that day, she really liked it. glad she "approved" of it lol. just got a few things to shop for and I'll be totally ready. =]

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[19 Apr 2006|05:56pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

There comes a time in life where you just have to realize you have to stop depending or putting so much trust on other people. you have to do things for yourself and not care what other people think about it. i guess this is my time. it's sad to have learned it this way, but it only makes me stronger. guess what? "sometimes i CAN make it on my own," and i no longer need you or any one else. i do things for myself, and only myself not for any one else. i don't need any one to lean on any more. i want to thank you for making me stronger. yes, it hurts, but it helped me. i can move on now and not look back at what we USED to have because it seems that it was all a lie. "i'm here" "i'll never let you go" "i love you," it was all a lie, and truthfully, yes, i do regret our friendship, i wish you had never been my "best friend," i wish i had never met you. now i can move on without you, forget you, and just go on as if we were never friends, as if i had never talked to you in my whole entire life. you've dissapointed me like no other, and that's enough to make me grow as a person and realize a lot of shit that i was blinded by. you're no longer "the reason i sing."

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[17 Apr 2006|09:21pm]
[ mood | mischievous ]

"yeah wuteva!" lol. i'm stealing a quote from a song but it's soooo right lol. i now get more time for other, more important stuff like my bf Doug so it's a good thing.
to clear something up, some of u seem to think i didnt go home after i got suspended from the team so i could lie to my mom saying i was playing so i could be w/ my bf well guess what?! UR WRONG! HAHAHA! it's great being 18!!! i know u guys looooove knowing everything about my personal life so sit down and read. i'm 18 and my family now knows i have a bf aka doug and that he's 19 and we work together. oh yes, and they're fine with it! hah!!! i'm sure by now ur not enjoying my happiness by all this muahahaha u thought i'd be miserable didnt ya? hah well i'm not, but good try though! i must hand it to all of u who tried to screw me over (even those who i thought were my "friends"), good idea, but next time try harder! not that easy to bring me down now b/c i don't care about what everyone else thinks, i realized it's something between jealousy and no life. oh and also, my brother is meeting doug on saturday just so u know. hehe being 18 is fucken awsome. hmmm i'm debating wether fighting my right or not. is it worth my precious time? we'll see how my mood is tomorrow. well cherio all my lovely haters, till next time!

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[13 Apr 2006|08:30am]
YAY! I'M 18! lol well thanks to all of you who actually remembered my b-day! =) ne ways, my day was quite interesting. my night plans totally changed but for the better, i had the greatest night ever. my bf is great and he makes me happy. =) coming home around 2 am sucked, didnt wanna come home but had to and it sucked b/c i just wanted to stay there. =/ it's ok though, i wont be here for long ne ways cuz of college =)
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[11 Apr 2006|11:42pm]
[ mood | high..IN THE SKY!!! NOT HIGH! ]

JUST GOT BACK FROM MY BF'S KICK BACK...FUUUUUUUCCCCKKK!!!! LOL MAAAAANNNNN!!!!! THAT SHIT WAS CRAY-ZAY!!! LOL MAN THAT TULIP DID ME WRONG!!!! LOL. IT WAS SOOO FREAKIN AWSOME, HAD A GREAT TIME I MUST SAY. NO MORE OF THAT SHIT THOUGH, IT GOT ME FUCKEN GOOD AND I FELT ALL STUPID LOL. NO MORE! LOL. SHIT SON! MY 18TH B-DAY IS IN LIKE 10 MINUTES!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!!!! FUCKEN TULIP....LOL......

AND MICHELLE....YOU DON'T KNOW NE THING ABOUT THIS OK ;) LOL. SHHHHH.....

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[09 Apr 2006|09:07pm]
THIS is my bf...



=)
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[08 Apr 2006|10:36pm]
[ mood | happy ]

soo...went on my date w/ DOUG! man it was sooo awsome, best date i've ever been on by far! we went to the movies at third street, then we went to pick up his guitar from his house (i stayed in car lol) and he took me to this one hill and we sat there and he played the guitar for me, very cute. after that we just talked in his car. i learned a lot about him, stuff i totally wouldnt have thought and we're just so cumbfortable w/ each other. i have finally found someone who is totally like me. got the whole rocker thing going on/skater thing/ guitarist. just awsome!!!! now comes the hard part though...rolli...

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[07 Apr 2006|10:54am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

so...like....my b day is wednesday!!!! =)just 4 days away till i'm legal!!!! =)

Stirb nicht vor mir

Die Nacht öffnet ihren Schoß
Das Kind heißt Einsamkeit
Es ist kalt und regungslos
Ich weine leise in die Zeit
Ich weiß nicht wie du heißt
Doch ich weiß dass es dich gibt
Ich weiß dass irgendwann
irgendwer mich liebt

He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away

I don't know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist

Ich warte hier
Don't die before I do
Ich warte hier
Stirb nicht vor mir

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Stirb nicht
Sometimes love seems so far
Ich warte hier
Your love I can't dismiss
Ich warte hier

Alle Häuser sind verschneit
Und in den Fenstern Kerzenlicht
Dort liegen sie zu zweit
Und ich
Ich warte nur auf dich

Ich warte hier
Don't die before I do
Ich warte hier
Stirb nicht vor mir

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Stirb nicht
Sometimes love seems so far
Ich warte hier
Your love I can't dismiss

Stirb nicht vor mir


*translation*

The night opens her lap
The child's name is loneliness
It is cold and motionless
I cry softly into time
I don't know what your name is
But I know that you exist
I know that sometime
someone will love me

He comes to me every night
No words are left to say
With his hands around my neck
I close my eyes and pass away

I don't know who he is
In my dreams he does exist
His passion is a kiss
And I can not resist

I wait here
Don't die before I do
I wait here
Don't die before I do

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Don't die
Sometimes love seems so far
I wait here
Your love I can't dismiss
I wait here

All the houses are covered in snow
And candle light in the windows
They lie there together
And I
I only wait for you

I wait here
Don't die before I do
I wait here
Don't die before I do

I don't know who you are
I know that you exist
Don't die
Sometimes love seems so far
I wait here
Your love I can't dismiss

Don't die before I do


gotta love german rock/metal! =) it'd crayzay

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[05 Apr 2006|05:48pm]
[ mood | excited ]

WOW, HE SAID IT! JUST SRAIGHT OUT SAID IT! =) I'M EXCITED!NOW I JUST HAVE TO WAIT AND WAIT. HOPEFULLY I WONT HAVE TO WAIT LONG.

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[04 Apr 2006|03:50pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I could not believe what my ears heard yesterday...I WAS SOO EXCITED!!! =) I'm bad though, I should be worried more than excited lol but wow, I never would have though...I don't know what I'ma do tomorrow when I get to work. Act or not? IDK! I can't wait to go to work today to find everything out from claud, I HOPE IT'S GOOD! =)

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[30 Mar 2006|10:01pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

i know i already talked to u on the phone and cried like a dumb ass, but i just really do care about u even though it may not seem like it. you are the greatest friend i've ever had and i know that we've sort of gone our own way, but i do miss you and i've always appreciated ur friendship. guess i wish things had gone differently, but it's too late to change the past right? i just hope the future is better and that once we do go off to college we wont forget about each other b/c i know i'll never forget you and everything we did together, alll our memories. i don't know what i would have done without you all of those times when you were the only one i had...i just wanna thank you for being there...

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[26 Mar 2006|09:06pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

blah blah blah...just updating for the heck of it =) so far so good except fo some haters lol. ne ways, school sucks work sucks (thanks alin! lol) and home sucks, but life ROCKS! it's fun when u subtract the school, job and rules. hehe. fuck rules i break em every fucken day without ppl even knowing it, well only a few know but yeah. the bf is good and we wuv each other =) my b day is coming up!!! (so wacha gonna get me??? lol) yup and on the 14th i will be on my way to visit davis for the new students seminar/tour thingy. that's gonna be fun, plus we're gonna b staying at my uncles so we all know what that means! lol. and chimmy choo i hope u can come with us. gotta ask ur momma!!! so what's good in the hood??!! hey chimmy choo so u know those girls in lacrosse??? they're like soooooooooooooooooo brokeback!!!! hahaha good one chimmy, i couldnt have come up with that one myself. now miles is gonna spread that shit. k well i think i should go do some bio now WOOOO HOOOO!!!

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[15 Mar 2006|09:36pm]
[ mood | bitter sweet...SWEET!!!!!!!!!! ]

I GOT INTO UC DAVIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and UC Santa Cruz, but DAVIS is my #1, MY DREAM!!!)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!    =) =) =) =) =) 


OK so yes, I'm sooooooo damn excited and happy but....it's like a bitter sweet feeling cuz I got into my dream school, but I can't help but think about leaving my Rolando....I don't want to leave him. I mean if I trip out now when I don't see him for one day, how can I handle not seeing him for months?? HELP!

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[14 Mar 2006|11:04pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Hey there pplz so here i am typing on my new lap top! =) hehe it's tite. ne ways, I PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST TODAY!!!!!!! YES!!!!!!!!i'm very proud of myself. but yeah, hat's pretty much all i have to say for myself at the moment. tomorrow's our lacrosse game, hope we win!

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[06 Mar 2006|08:37pm]
just thought to update for the heck of it. geeze i never realized just how much some ppl don't appreciate other ppl, it pisses me off. but ne ways, johnny depp's new movie "the libertine" is coming out on friday! =)  i got a funny pic of him in that movie with his long hair lol but i'm too tired to put it on photobucket and get the link. ne ways, guess i'm done with this stupid random entry.
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GO CITY!!!!! [04 Mar 2006|05:57pm]
[ mood | HAPPY BUT TIRED! ]

SO I JUST GOT BACK FROM OUT TOURNAMENT AT THE ROSE BOWL AND WOW! JUST WOW!!!!! I NEVER THOUGHT! WE WON 2 OUT OF THREE GAMES!!!!! IT WAS AWSOME!!!!! 3-0, 2-1, 3-6, IT'S NOT EVEN A BIG DEAL THAT WE LOST THE LAST ONE BECAUSE WE MADE A HUUUUUUUUUUUUGE IMPROVEMENT FROM LAST YEAR. GOOD JOB TO ALL OF U GUYS! =) WE KICKED ASS!!!

THE ONLY SAD PART WAS THAT MY MOMMY WASN'T THERE...MY EMOTIONAL ASS CRIED WHEN I CALLED MY MOM AND TOLD HER THAT WE WON TWO GAMES. SO YEAH, NOW U CAN STOP WONDERING WHY I WAS CRYING (IF U SAW ME). I'M JUST SO USED TO HAVING HER THERE AT EVEYTHING I DO, FROM DANCING, ACTING, SINGING, AND NOW LACROSSE, SHE'S ALWAYS BEEN THERE SINCE ELEMENTARY SCHOOL, AND NOW TO LOOK OUT AT THE CROWD AND NOT SEE HER THERE REALLY HURT ME, ESPECIALLY SINCE WE WON AND WE HAD NEVER WON B4. SHE FELT REALLY BAD AND THEN SHE STARTED CRYING OVER THE PHONE WHICH MADE ME CRY MORE B/C I JUST REALLY WANTED HER TO BE THERE WITH ME...BUT I GUESS I CAN'T ALWAYS HAVE WHAT I WANT. WHEN I GOT HOME THOUGH, SHE OPENED THE DOOR AND SHE HAD ROSES FOR ME IN HER HAND AND SHE GAVE ME A HUGE HUG AND TOLD ME HOW PROUD SHE WAS, WHICH REALLY MADE ME FEEL GOOD. =)

WELL NOW I SHALL RELAX FOR AN HOUR AN A HALF AND....GHAAA!!!! I GOTTA GO TO WORK AT 8PM AND BE THERE TIL MIDNIGHT...UUHHHH STUPID INVENTORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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